|SeamSTRESS. Get it? GET IT???|
Physical clutter and mental clutter go hand in hand. One of the many, many things on my mental To-Do list for the last several years was to finally learn how to sew.
I picked up a very basic sewing machine at Target for about $20. I collected pretty pieces of fabric from thrift shops and squirreled them away in a box for when I learn to sew. Short of mending a few comforters with torn seams, the sewing machine has never left its box and neither has the fabric.
Like many things on my mental To-Do list, this wore on me and I got really down on myself because I hadn't taken the initiative to learn to use my sewing machine. I had grandiose dreams of making my own clothes and cute up-cycled accessories from thrifted fabric.
What I finally realized was that I didn't really want to learn to sew. I wanted to be A Person Who Can Sew because I admire and am envious of all the crafty seamstresses out there. The actual act of sewing holds no interest for me, so I've never bothered to make myself learn. Sometimes we confuse wanting to do or learn something with wanting to be the kind of person who does those things. I had set this goal for the wrong reasons, making it - duh - nearly impossible for me to accomplish.
Come to grips with the idea that some projects are never going to get done, and cross them off your list. I am never going to be a seamstress and learn to make cute ipod cozies and change purses. All that fabric I'm hoarding is just taking up space. I thought it would be disappointing to admit that it just isn't going to happen - that I don't have the dedication or the willpower.
The fabric has been given away. The sewing machine I'll keep for mending, but I no longer have any illusions that it's going to produce great things. It was pretty liberating to eliminate that item from my To-Do list.